Wednesday, June 23, 2010

strange day

woke up naturally at 7:30 this morning. ryan was up getting ready to go to work. i got up spoke a few words to him and went back to bed. went back to sleep pretty easily but woke up frequently tossing from one side to the other until around 9:30. that's when i decided i finally had enough and got up.

it was muggy when i finally got out of bed this morning. i made sure to water our petite garden and potted herbs and inside plants while i was at it. i figured everything needed a nice drink of water on this hot summer day.

i lazed around a bit, checking e-mail, a few blogs, twitter & facebook updates. nothing out of the normal. i decided i had better make myself something for breakfast. i decided on a cooling green smoothie which hit the spot.

but something was strange, i didn't feel like myself today. i contribute it to worrying about my finances. as of late they haven't exactly been the best. i know money comes & money goes but when you are in the moment of money not being around it's hard to see the other side of the proverbial coin (that you might not have at that moment).
originally i planed to go observe a few yoga classes for my 200 ryt training but just couldn't seem to make it out of my house, or my pj's for that matter. so i turned the ac on, closed all the blinds (totally unlike me), propped myself up on the couch and watched some food network.

after watching tv for what seemed to be an ungodly amount of time i decided to retreat back to my bed for some reading and napping.

after napping for again what felt like forever, i woke up and took a shower. i feel a little better but my blinds are still closed. i am off to pull myself together (somehow) and take myself to assist a yoga class. i know it will make me feel immensely better but right now it's hard to convince myself otherwise.

please tell me i'm not crazy and that you all experience strange days like this from time to time too. hugs!!

*update: just got word that the yoga class i was going to assist just got canceled. probably for the best for today. i think i am going to do legs up the wall for a while and see if i can't reconnect back to myself.

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Debra She Who Seeks said...

Sounds like you just need some time off to yourself, after working so hard on your classes and exams.

Indie.Tea said...

I think that everyone does have days like that...when everything seems so overwhelming and you just need to turn your brain off.
I hope that you are feeling better :)

Ally said...

I may be the queen of days like this. I could tell you to not lose sight of the many important/positive things going on in your life (because there are many), but I know what it's like to hear that, so I won't. Money sucks. I think it's perfectly fine to retreat from the world like this, as long as it doesn't last for an extended period. Chin up, it will pass. :) xoxo

Carolyn said...

Hey M~

You've been so super busy lately with a week in Pittsburgh immersed in yoga teacher training that your body & soul needed a day of Rest, relaxation and rejuvination. Add that to financial worries and you were hit with a double whammy! I am glad that you were able to get some well deserved rest~ may your Thursday be tranquil..xoxo

Lisa said...

I have had those days more than I care to admit. Honestly, I wonder why (outside of social stigma) we get so concerned about such times? I think there is that lesson about letting go of our expectations (i.e. what we expected to get done that day, what we feel we "should" get done) to truly enjoy what is.

I get twisty in my stomach even thinking about finances and encourage you to take as much time as you need, as much food network as you can watch, as much sleep as you can endure, and to keep those legs up the wall until they fall sideways by themselves. :)

Sending you warm energy...

TheAnalyst said...

Totally normal! You've been super busy and just need a moment to do sort of nothing! I have many days like this and it is usually after much accumulated stress.

I hope things brighten up soon!

Olivia said...

I will compete with Ally for being the Queen of such days. You're not strange at all. We all do indeed have them.

With regards to money, it may help to realize that throughout life your money situation will change over and over again. At least for most people it will (who aren't independently wealthy). I made pretty good money as a student and then a young adult working with computers (which I hated). Then I was sick and desperately poor for many, many years (until I was in my 40's). Now I am financially secure, for the time, until things change.

This too shall pass,


Lavanya said...

*hugs* don't worry melita- I have strange days too..those days when something seems wrong but you can't really put your finger on what's wrong..I also have days when I feel anxious/scared/depressed for no specific reason (lots of times I end up attributing it to PMS) you are definitely not alone!! hugs!! Drink lots of water and write it all out- it might help.

Hope your day gets better!!

Rand(Om) Bites said...

Oh hon, I'm with you girl. We all have days like this and financial stress can be a real downer. I am regularly trying to make ends meet with work, study, yoga.... Just hang in there, take the time out and retreat. Bad days don't last {{{HUGS}}} x

Carolyn said...

I had a day like this earlier this week. I felt weird but realized sometimes, a day in bed is just what is needed. Glad you are feeling better! xoxo

Eco Yogini said...

I certainly have those days- I'm glad you took time for you to reconnect.

money is tricky for sure... and I can relate about the stress.